sumbang kan lah!

suara pak cik tak shedap, sebab feedback dari kawan2 dan mereka2 yang sewaktu dengan nya kata tak shedap. dan lagi, walopun pak cik bleh menjerit dengan kuat, kalo nyanyi lagu key yang tinggi akan terbatuk2 lah pak cik kerna sakit tekak. sebab itu lah pak cik jarang menyertai aktiviti2 karaoke. kalo juin pun lebih sebagai pemerhati bebas (bukak pengkritik bebas ya!) dan cuma sesekali ikut nyanyi ramai2.

tapi buat pertama kali dalam sejarah ari sabtu lepas pak cik telah men'sumbang'kan nyanyian pak cik secara aktif dalam aktiviti karaoke. banyak gak lagu yang pak cik 'sumbang'kan. teknik pernafasan tu pak cik ok, smooth jek. cuma bab2 gali2 bak kata ogy amad daud dana melontarkan irama2 lagu bak kata hattan tu masih kurang. walo bagaimana pun pak cik puas ati :D. sebagai bukti nya .. malam tu atau pun pagi tu ujan tak turun pun. leh la juin lagi aktibiti2 karaoke ni di masa akan datang!

start aktibiti karaoke tu 15 minit selepas kol 12 malam dan berlangsung selama 2 jam. kemudian nya gi melepak kat kedai mamak. bila azan subuh berkumandang baru lah pak cik sampai umah ...

opps ... sampai sini dulu. ada kes kecemasan laks. sambung kendian nanti atau di lain hari ya!

Ombak Itu.

ombak yang memukul pantai

tika angin bertiup kencang

ombak yang mengusap pasiran

bila angin sepoi-sepoi bahasa

ombak yang melambung kapal

dalam ribut yang sedang menggila

itu lah juga ombak nya

yang menyapa kaki ku mesra

sekembali nya aku di pantai

dengan segenggam harapan yang punah

dan tangisan cinta keciwa.

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apa di harap pada kawan

yang sering melupakan

apa di tunggu pada sahabat

yang tak pernah berkunjung datang

apa di mimpi pada rakan

tiada pun bertanya khabar

apa di impi ikatan persahabatan

tanpa kejujuran dan keikhlasan.

*saya bangga saya anak malaysia* bak kata nabil .. II.

mengenai ulasan pak cik terlebih dahulu tentang pru dan implikasi nya selepas itu. salah satu implikasi yang tak pernah terpikir oleh sesiap sebelum ini adalah dari segi undang2.

ramai pihak yang tak paham atau kurang mahir dan fasih tentang soal perlembagaan dan undang2 negeri dan persekutuan. akibat nya ... ada yang telah tersilap langkah dan terkhilaf bicara. yang paling jelas dapat di jadikan contoh adalah kesilapan DAP ketika membantah pemilihan ADUN dari PAS oleh YAM Raja Nazrin bagi jawatan Menteri Besar Perak. akibat nya ... mereka mendapat malu sendiri. blom lagi di kira kemarahan rakyat Perak.

dan yang paling mengharukan sekarang adalah soal perlantikan Menteri Besar Trengganu. sama2 kita lihat bicara dan aksi-aksi mereka yang terlibat. ada yang telah memperlihatkan sikap kurang ajar mereka. ada yang cukup angkuh dan sombong. ada yang telah menunjukkan kebutaan mereka dalam soal peruntukan undang2.

mungkin sebahagian dari kita muak dengan cerita2 politik. akan tetapi ini juga adalah soal rakyat. soal keluhuran undang2 dan perlembagaan. salah satu rukun negara!

mari kita lihat kesudahan nya.

tidak silap pak cik katakan ... soal menteri besar trengganu ini boleh mempengaruhi soal perdana menteri. kalo menteri besar terengganu yang di pilih oleh Majlis Pemangku Sultan trengganu di beri undi tidak percaya, Perdana Menteri juga mungkin akan menerima nasib yang sama. tetapi bukan dari parti pembangkang. bukan dari raja-raja dan sultan-sultan. tetapi dari ahli-ahli politik kerajaan sendiri.

sama-sama kita lihat ...

*saya bangga saya anak malaysia* bak kata nabil ...

satu perkara yang harus di puji tentang orang2 amerika adalah, mereka sangat patriotik. kalo di tanya tentang kekuatan amerika ... kekuatan mereka adalah .. walopun penduduk nya yang berbilang bangsa, sekira nya berlaku malapetaka, mereka akan bersatu padu atas nama amerika untuk mengharungi bencana itu bersama-sama. perasan tak? bendera amerika jelas terpampang dan di guna kan di mana2.

mungkin orang2 kita, melayu ke, india ke, cina ke, atau pun yang lain2 nya amat pemalu untuk menunjuk kan semangat patriotik mereka. kalo di hari kebangsaan pun jenuh di iklan kan dalam tivi agar rakyat mengibarkan jalur gemilang. satu soalan yang mudah ... adakah setiap rumah di malaysia ini ada menyimpan jalur gemilang? adakah setiap seorang dari kita mempunyai jalur gemilang? justeru itu semangat kita untuk mengibarkan jalur gemilang hanya pada hari kebangsaan sahaja. tak heran lah .. kalo anak pak cik yang umur 5 tawon itu kalo nampak jalur gemilang sahaja dia akan menyebut 'merdeka, merdeka'.

contoh jelas pada pru yang baru lepas ... hanya bendera parti2 politik yang di kibarkan. bendera malaysia tak kelihatan di mana-mana. apatah lagi bendera negeri! cuba lihat bangunan2 opis kerajaan atau swasta, lihatlah keadaan bendera malaysia dan negeri. ada yang dah koyak rabak dan dah usang. itu pun kalo ada di kibarkan bendera2 itu. ini baru soal bendera.

yang slalu pak cik persoalkan di dalam hati, amat payah untuk membaca, melihat dan mendengar tentang pencapaian atau pun berita perkembangan tentang atlit2 malaysia yang bertanding di luar negara. tak kisah lah apa jenis sukan sekali pun. pak cik rasa media2 tempatan sepatutnya memberi mereka liputan yang meluas walopun prestasi mereka tidak hebat atau pun sukar mencapai kemenangan. sekurang2 nya liputan itu akan membakar perasaan dan semangat anak2 muda remaja untuk menyertai sukan dan sebagai nya.

liputan yang meluas akan menarik perhatian kompeni besar untuk menaja atlit2 malaysia. kompeni ini akan mendapat 'iklan' dan atlit2 mendapat wang yang di perlukan. sekurang2 nya masalah wang dapat di atasi menerusi cara ini.

ini baru di sebut tentang sukan. berita2 lain juga masih perlu di liputi tentang anak2 malaysia yang bekerja, berjuang, balajar di luar negara.

kalo setakat sekali pergi angkasa dan itu pun di taja oleh kerajaan malaysia dan barulah media2 yang di kuasai oleh kerajaan hendak membuat liputan ... siapa patut di salahkan tentang kurang nya semangat patriotik? rakyat atau negara yang di pilijh oleh rakyat itu?

apdet sejemput dua ..

payah btol nak apdet skrg ... masa yg kureng. koneksi tenet yg kureng tegar. idea yang tunggang langgang padahal banyak citer nak tulis nih. tapi sebab lily dah komen suwuh apdet ... pak cik cuba lah apdet gak.

mula2 ... nabil menang raja lawak astro musim kedua. this guy is brilliant hope he will continue to progress and add sexciting colour to our local scene. his performance in all 10 weeks including the grand finale have been entertaining. poor the other contestants ... they are eclipsed by him. nevertheless this season has been oustanding to the sextent that some people were saying it will cause current af6 looks less sexciting.

i have been looking forward for month of march. particularly because it is in this month the motogp and F1 new season will be kicked off. and it is much and great anticipation that bmw sauber petronas will perform well this time around. hope they will win a few gps!

last weekend tho has not been that well in term of sports. tiger woods winning streak came to an end. arsenal was defeated tho they lead one nil and worst MU won thus arsenal demoted further to third of the premier league.

sekian lama pak cik tak gi cinema tengok wayang. tader org nak ajak gi tengok sama. :D on another note, i made peace dengan ehem ehem atas sebab2 politik. got to maintain cordial working relationship. other than date there will be nothing else. she did hinted and indirectly indicated that she wanna go out with me. "ingat nak call u malam tadi ajak keluar, tapi takut orang tu tak angkat telepon". "bila u nak blanjer i bla bla ... mengidam nak makan bla bla ...". and a lot other things she said but needed to be censored here. now is the time to wat bodoh jek. hopefully i will continue be able to avoid her.

pak cik bercadang nak masak ikan salmon ngan ikan jenahak malam ni. goreng2 jek. ala2 grill gitu. goreng dengan minyak bijan. sure shedap bau nyer nanti. besok malam masak steak laks.

malam ni gak nak gi ngadap orang tua pak cik. malam tadi masa pak cik bawak anak2 jantan pak cik jalan2 sopping kat jusco klang, terhengat2 kedua2 orang tua pak cik. windu lak. macam dah lama sangat jek tak jumpa.

this week pak cik mau start diet baru. berat pak cik dah lebig 75 kg nih. tummy pun macam dah nak naik semula. kene lah kontrol balik. tapi target baru skrg nih ... body sculture and regain my fitness! nak cuba barang sebulan dua. hopefully berhasil lah.

next entry ... pak cik nak citer pasal patriotisme! bak kata nabil ... saya bangga saya anak malaysia! *walopun pak cik penyokong setia PAS* :D

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Kembara berjalan bersendirian
Mencari jalan pulang
Bilakah masanya embunkan menjelma
Di tanah gersang yang membakar

Kami semua senasib dengan mu
Wahai kembara di tanah gersang
Mencari kebahgian dalam hidup
Menempuh berbagi rintangan yang ada
Namun bahgia masih impian

- an sexcerpt of Kembara Di Tanah Gersang by Al-Jawaher

apdet seciput ...

pak cik agak kebizian lately ... minggu ni pun pastinya pak cik akan membizikan diri. banyak keje yg outstanding nih ...

last thursday ... sedang pak cik jalan2 ngan anak2 pak cik gi kedai, tetiba bini pak cik tipon dengan nada apset ... 'nak balik kampung, anak cik ila si intan meninggal ...'. malam tu jugak pak cik balik kampung. cik ila adalah sepupu bini pak cik, anak mak long nya yang tinggal di sebelah rumah mertua pak cik.

si intan meninggal kerena tercekik sosej. usaha untuk mengeluarkan sosej yg terlekat di tekak nya tak berhasil. dah muntah2 dan biru muka nya, tak juga berhasil. ketika allahyarhamah sampai di hospital seremban, beliau sudah pun nyawa2 ikan. doktor mengatakan sukar untuk merawat nya kerana paru2 nya sudah kehabisan oksigen. allahyarhamah akhirnya meninggal dunia.

allahyarhamah sebenarnya kanak2 istimewa. ketika kecil beliau di sahkan mengidap jantung berlubang. tetapi semakin dia membesar, yang berlubang itu seakan tertutup dengan sendiri. wallahualam .... Walaubagaimanapun beliau tidaklah sekuat kanak2 lain. begitulah kebiasaan nya bagi kanak2 yang mengidap 'down syndrome'.

pernah pak cik mencoret di sini tentang si suami yang ingin berkahwin lagi dan si isteri meminta cerai, bakal isteri dan bakal mertua juga tak mahu anak mereka bermadu dan akhirnya si suami menceraikan isteri dan berkahwin lain? inilah keluarga tersebut ...

si isteri banyak menghabiskan masa nya dengan si intan. kehilangan nya pasti amat di rasai oleh cik ila. moga beliau dan keluarga nya tabah menghadapi dugaan ini.

buat pertama kali bagi pak cik, pak cik turut menghantar jenazah ke kubur. kerana allahyarhamah masih kanak2 yang belum mumaiyiz maka tiada talkin di buat di kubur. malam itu pak cik bawak anak2 lelaki pak cik dan anak2 buah pak cik ke majlis tahlil. suka bebudak tu dapat duit yang di beri tuan rumah walaupun cuma seringgit dua yang di letak kan di telapak tangan mereka sedang mereka menadah tangan untuk berdoa.

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rumah mertua pak cik di apit oleh rumah kakak nya, mak long dan juga abang nya, tok ngah yang juga ketua kampung. seingat pak cik inilah kematian yang ke enam kesemua nya, cukup dua kematian bagi setiap rumah. kematian bergilir2 untuk setiap rumah yang di mulai dengan rumah mertua pak cik. pak cik pun tetiba berasa cuak ... kalau giliran itu benar maka nya kematian seterusnya akan berlaku di rumah mertua pak cik. naudzubillah ...

PRU 12 : The Aftermath ...

sori, pak cik cuti semalam. kene mengadap sultan pasal state exco lines-up! :D

to begin with, most of the voters only cast their vote for opposition as a protest. what they are protesting for? a lots apparently. and never in their minds actually to change the government. they just want the government to feel the pinch and wake up from their arrogance attitude as well as to have a stronger check & balance. unfortunately, too many cast the protest votes thus the 'tsunami' effect.

as i mentioned earlier, to loose Selangor to opposition is the most major blow to BN. in chinese news paper they printed pictures of shredded documents in state selangor offices. the handover yet to be done. is the state delaying the sworn in of new government? for what reasons? lu pikir lah sendiri ya ...

many souls in selangor will not sleep in peace. some may even not getting sleep at all. the skeletons in the cupboard will haunt them now.

late Dato' Zakaria of port klang passed away. this is just a good example whay people didn't vote for BN. he was clouded with corruption. BN dropped him but appointed his daughter in law? then it is clear that the BN are not actually fight againts corruption.

did you notice that BN flags and poster were not as grand and many this time around. more like a by-election and not general election. the oppositions posters are equal in number if not more than BN. why is that so? too confident?

a man told me that UMNO is too busy trying to wrestle Kelantan from PAS. he asked ... why bother? now they lost Penang and what will happen to the Malays there?

is it wrong to ask for Pak Lah and Dr Khir Toyo to resign? to ask Samy Vellu is a waste of time. he will say ... this is act of god!

PKR, DAP and PAS are all about just. now they have a platform to show what they can do. it will be interesting to see how they will fare. can they balance the racial sentiment against economy needs? Perak and Selangor have a coalition opposition government. these are rich states. Kedah, Kelantan and Penang have a majority of one opposition party government. two scenario of opposition government. quite an sexciting scenario isn't it?

there are many consequences due to the result of PRU 12. something that nobody ever thought for before. in term of political effect? laws and legislation? racial and ethnic? economy?

people have spoken. now they will have to face the consequences for 5 years to come.

and one thing one can't discount for near future or years to come, will PKR joint BN? will Anwar manage to path his way and become the PM?

time will tell ...

the people have spoken ...

many caught by surprise by the result of our PRU-12 or general election. even the opposition parties! DAP must be scrumbling now on how to administer Penang. where as for Kedah, i don't think it would be much problem to them. it would be sexciting to see how the opposition going to form coalition government in Perak & Selangor.

loosing Selangor and two third majority in Parliament are the major blows to BN. not even the defeat of their Ministers could describe how disaster the outcome will be for them.

the question is now will BN ever learn from this event? am too sad to say, or perhaps too early, that they have not. good indication is Samy Vellu still get to keep his MIC Presidency. wanna know again why they lost?

one thing for sure, if BN let things remain as what they are, for next general election, it will be tougher for them to win the people's vote. gone are the old generations of voters who will vote the 'dacing' even if they put a goat as the candidate! the younger generations of voters are unlike their fathers and mothers ...

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i still remeber fondly, while i was staying with my Mak Long when I was 12 years old, i went to PAS ceramah. when she found out about it, she went beserk and warned me not to do it again. she will break my legs if i do.

that time if i am not mistaken, Peristiwa Memali just happened. she is soooo afraid of the violence that PAS could induce. but breaking my legs and the warning ... isn't it just another form of violence and censorship?

Epi Weekend!

sorry ... pak cik membizikan diri lately. kennot apdet much.

this weekend cuti sekolah dah start. pada yang bercuti2 tu .. samat bercuti. jangan lupa menunaikan tanggungjawab untuk mengundi! tak kira samada anda ingin mengundi parti kerajaan atau pembangkang atau saja2 nak merosakkan undi sebagai tanda protes, pergi lah mengundi!

pak cik sepatutnya mengundi di wangsa maju, kl. ehem hem .. pak cik orang kay ell rupanya! :D

akhir kata, tunaikan lah tanggung jawab pada diri sendiri, keluarga, masyarakat, negara dan yang paling penting pada agama. *chewah*

see you alls back in one piece!

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tambah skit ...

malam tadi gi antar babysitter balik umah dia kat kuala selangor. sebelom bertolak pak cik aplod mp3 dlm thumbdrive utk di dengar sepanjang perjalanan nanti. takyah la pak cik sebut nama lagu2 nya. tapi lagu lelama yang pernah menjadik siulan pak cik dedulu :D

pak cik bawak kete slow2. rileks je. sampai sana lebehkurang dlm kol 9 lebih skit. bini pak cik pun start la menyembang dengan kak long dia. bla bla bla .... pak cik layan american idol kat tivi jek. punya la lama dia dua worang bersembang, pak cik bagi chance. bukan selalu kan? kan kan?

kol sebelas lebeh baru bertolak balik. tu pun sebab baby dah start meragam. ujan plaks. bertambah slow la pak cik drive kete. 60 km/j jek. sampai umah kol 12 lebeh. pak cik layan dulu citer house season 4 part 1. tup tup mata laks ngantuks ... tido dulu ler.

pak cik memang suka memandu. jalan ke kuala selangor tu pun (dari arah sg buluh melalui ijok) memang faveret pak cik. kalo bawak kete lelaju memang besh. overtake kat selekoh2 maut mcm citer 'inital d' laks. tunggu la pak cik dapat kete lumba pak cik. harus pak cik cuba try test tengok kat situ wat rekod ...

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*everyone can speed. but not everyone dare risking everything including the car and life*

Till Death Do Us Apart ...

got the news that a baby of my colleague past away peacefully last nite. the baby got 'jantung berlubang'.

only last month, another fren of mine also lost her baby daughter also due to 'jantung berlubang'. he and his wife was jubilated to have a baby daughter after all previous three kids are sons. but fate decided otherwise. and he was warded when his baby past away.

these two events reminded me that no matter how difficult my life is, no matter what the problem is, at least my family and myself are still alife. no matter how sad i am, no matter how cruel the fate blowed on me, at least i still got another day to live and work things out. and my family are fine despite a litle bits of flu, fever and etc etc.

that is how i push away the agony in my heart. at least i am still alife and kicking.

i did mentioned before my baby is a litle bit difficult to handle as he cried a lots. and it was loud. too many times i almost lost my patience. but my wife patiently attended to him. this perhaps i will elaborate later. but honest to God, this is the scenario when i fully noded with the say that 'syurga di bawah tapak kaki ibu'.

women can be selfish. women can be the devil. women can push men to hell and he shall became the most horrible monster as a result. but a woman with a baby, she is the most strongest super woman of all. as delicate as she can be, she is also the toughest.

dear sons and daughters out there, think twice before you raise your voice to your parents.

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senja yang berlabuh
menjemput sunyi dan sepi
dan tirai kegelapan melitupi alam
hanya desiran ombak
yang membelai pantai
menemani camar yang bersendirian
tidak ketemui jalan pulang.

reflection ...

the other nite i watched the story of 'changing lane' on tv. the story about two individual who at the height of tensions and pressure and commotions, outraged and confused, inflicting each other with cruel acts tho somehow they actually didn't meant it.

after watching the movie i say thank you to myself for my approach in getting myself silence and do nothing when i was repeatedly treated badly by others. even at my top of anger and madness i managed to calm down and kill any of the bad intentions that lingered in my head. the plot to do to cruel act is so real and nasty. those people really don't know how i can damaged their life including their job, family and their parents.

but crime and injustice doesn't pay. while others are doing it i will try not to participate. the buck will stop at me. never in my heart i wanna hurt anybody. ever. even when they sadistically hurt me deep.

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'god created and put on earth, an angel for each one of us. but only those fortunate and lucky enough will find theirs. the rest ... they have unfortunately shove away their angel by their own acts. and not only they will suffer. so too their other half.'

even in death

i am missing you terribly

in this eternal sleep

i shall welcome you in my dreams

forever.

Addiction ...

errrr ... to my own surprise, i am now officially addicted to raja lawak season 2. season one pak cik main jeling2 jek. but then, the other day i was tickled off by one of the participants performance. he is just superb. without doubt he will be the champion for the current season. bukan pilih kasih sebab dia orang negeri sembilan but go watch him and lu pikir lah sendiri!

like what all the jury been said to him ... thank you for the brilliant performance.

my only hope he will continue to deliver astonishing performance for the coming 2 weeks as well as after being crown as the champion. please continue to tickle us and make us laugh watching your performance and smile alone ...

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- messejbox ni sesuka je tukar template dia. udah la pak cik tak terhengat email n password masa daftar messejbox tuh. lenkali la pak cik godek2 email pak cik ...

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