Monday, July 16, 2007

Ntah La ...

last saturday i went back to my hometown in Malacca. i decided to bring all of my kids and my wife also. we departed after dawn. i wasn't getting any sleep that nite. the traffic along the way especially in the highway was ok and we travel at ease.
we arrived around 11 am. my sister and my dad already busy around the house. the new house almost completed now except for soem part of the ceiling, flooring tiles and electricity installment at the 'kitchen side'. the main house was completed a while back.
yes ... it was the fruit season. rambutan, pulasan, manggis and durian. all awaiting our homecomings. my wife was especially delighted to see the red pulasan. my kids was busying themselves around the house. i myself went to the back of the house ... the old rubber trees was call cleared without a traces. now the land is poised for re-plant of new rubber trees.
i was in a relatively cheer up mood according to my wife. i was singing one part of the lyric " .. dia bukan milik ku" from God's know what song is that. i myself didn't particularly aware just where did i picked up the song. but somehow one simpathetized sould gave me the song 'Hapus Aku' by Nidji.
Kutuliskan kesedihan
Semua tak bisa kau ungkapkan
Dan kita kan bicara dengan hatiku
Buang semua puisi
Antara kita berdua
Kau bunuh dia sesuatu
Yang kusebut itu cinta
Chorus:Yakinkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku…
Sadarkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku…
I realized that God do show me some lights. now it all up to me what to do. but still am not sure what should i do. to be filial and take revenge or just be myself and walk away and keep my soul to its current un-pure state and not to blacken it more ...
" out of sufferings, emerged a stronger soul" as some would saying. but there is also a likelihood that a baddest and meaner soul will emerge isn't it? ;))


Blogger aria ayumi said...

pakcik.. pakcik sihat?? hope sihat2 slalu ye... jgn dihapus2 ye... :p

5:10 PM  
Blogger Jie said...

nice song ..tapi luka!

yg berlalu biarlah berlalu...pandang masa depan.

9:53 AM  
Blogger zura lias said... ade comment sebelum pokcik delete..sampai atie pokcik..waaaaa...*gi kt batu..hempas2 kepala*

9:54 AM  
Blogger MZ said...

diya. pak cik ader nih ... tak hapus2 nyer lagi :)) ekekeke

jie. biarkan berlaku ekk? ehh ... biarkan berlalu ... *shilaps lak :D*

juera. tak pernah terjadi dlm sejarah pak cik delete komen2 juera tu. mungkin juera terdelete sendrik. mungkinkah? sila2 la aplod kembali komen yg terdelete itu :p *gi hempas paler kat batu? kat ner? kuala kubu baru?*

10:49 AM  
Blogger sayda said...

be happy k.yeah!

11:25 AM  
Blogger MZ said...

yup .sayda .. be epi! *i wish*

11:48 AM  
Blogger Hanna J. Potter said...

if there's such a profession as an inspirer..i would want to be one.. i don't know how this is related to your entry..but the thought came around suddenly when i finished reading it..

anyway..thnx, for the comment on the creamy caramel bear.. i had forgotten the last time i had ever wanted something so badly..


take care!

2:08 PM  
Blogger Hanna J. Potter said...

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2:09 PM  
Blogger zura lias said...

sy dh x ingt le pe sy comment arie x jd nk hempas sbb batu sume xde kt rumah..hempas kat bantal pastu tertido terus..

8:26 PM  
Blogger MZ said...

hanna. yes there is. but under different name i guess. motivator? caunsellor .. angel?
the comment? it is not just a comment. it is an offer! :p

juera. meh hempas paler tu satu bantal ngan pak cik. nak tak? :p

12:17 PM  
Blogger Hanna J. Potter said...

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9:43 PM  
Blogger Hanna J. Potter said...

mr would it..for me? i awfully want it..i would cry if you joke about it.. i know this is rude..but please..dont give me hope if you dont mean it... you really would..?

9:44 PM  
Blogger MZ said...

- ya lor *God Permit la*.
- on another note, if u r feeling u r not entitled for charity just think of something to earn it.

10:43 PM  

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