Karma?

"I cry silently

I cry inside of me

I cry hopelessly

Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again

I cry

Cause you're not here with me

I cry

Cause I'm lonely as can be"*

one thing i taught myself since i was a small kid, not even schooling yet, is to be responsible. to be dare to face the consequences of my own doings. and sometimes others as well. perhaps that a price i am paying for being a big brother and the eldest son. just maybe.

and at this lonely hour i am trying to figure out what was or were my sin(s) in the past which i am paying now, for this sorrow and pain deep in my heart.

how long this will go on. cause it is almost unbearable. almost ...


* shayne ward's 2006 'I Cry'