Touch Me.

play me a song

a song of my heart

as it yearning

for your silky touch.

- sa. October 27, 2005.

Membisu.

kata-kata yang tidak terucap

berkemundang disekeliling

terngiang-ngiang ditelinga

bergema diruang kepala

perlahan-lahan ia

terpahat di hati

menjadi racun

percintaan ini

memusnahkan mimpi.

- sa. October 27, 2005. 0930am.

Longing.

i can't sleep last nite

as the other nites

but this time

the longing for you was much intense

and growing every nites

coz i want you badly

but knowing i can't have you ..

- October 26, 2005. sa. 1024 am.

Hasrat Ku Yang Satu.

setelah kehadiran mu
akan redakah ribut kemarahan

akan terpadamkah bahang kebencian

akan berlalukah kabus kekecewaan.

semerbak kan lah ruang kosong ini

yang seribu tahun kering sepi

dengan harum kasih mu.

suburkanlah hati ini

dengan embun chenta mu

moga tumbuhlah pohonan kasih sayang

teguh dan rendang

yang pucuknya menggapai syurga.

- sa. October 22, 2005. 0111 am. picture : six gradate to the perfection by ssilence.deviantart.com

Even in Dream

in middle of the nite

when the storm is getting closer

covering the full moon that shining bright

painting the world black

you are all i see

you are all i think of.

- sa. Oct 19, '05.

Airmata Lelaki.

seperkara yang paling disalah faham mengenai lelaki
paling disalah erti
lelaki tidak menangis?

lelaki sebenarnya menangis
mungkin lebih kerap dari wanita itu sendiri
bezanya hanya
tangisan lelaki tanpa airmata.

bila lelaki menitiskan airmata
sudah terlewatkah jalan-jalan untuk bujukan?
hilangkah harga sesuatu yang dulunya tidak ternilai?
hatta satu dunia itu sekali pun?

You'll See.

You think that you are strong, but you are weak

You'll see

It takes more strengh to cry, admit defeat

I have truth on my side

You only have deceit

You'll see, somehow, someday.

All by myself

I don't need anyone at all

I know i'll survive

I know i'll stay alive.

All on my own

I don't need anyone this time

It will be mine

No one can take it from me

You'll see.

- Madonna. You'll see. An Sexcerpt.

You're Beautiful.

My life is brilliant

My love is pure

I saw an angel

Of that i'm sure

She smiled at me on the subway

She was with another man

But i won't lose no sleep on that

Cause i've got a plan

CHORUS

You`re beautiful. You`re beautiful.

You`re beautiful, it`s true

I saw your face in a crowded place,

and i don't know what to do

cause i`ll never be with you

yeah, she caught my eye

As we walked on by

She could see from my face that i was,

fucking high,

and i don't think that i`ll see her again

but we shared a moment that will last til the end

CHORUS

You`re beautiful.You`re beautiful

You`re beautiful, its true

i saw your face in a crowded place

and i dont know what to do

cause i`ll never be with you

You`re beautiful. You`re beautiful

You`re beautiful, it`s true

there must be an angel with a smile on her face,

when she thought up that i should be with you,

but it`s time to face the truth

i will never be with you.

- James Blunt

Rindu.

tika dekat

tidak didakap

tika jauh

mengapa merindu?

- lenggeng. 15 October, 2005. 0200 am.

- picture : moonchild by randis.deviantart.com

Airmata Rindu.

hujan begitu lebat di luar

dan angin kencang yang menderu

membawa tempias ke kaca jendela

tompok-tompok air yang terkumpul

akhirnya melurut turun

membasahi birai jendela.

pandangan yang kabur

adakah kerna tempias hujan di jendela

atau adakah kerna mata yang tergenang

dek dada yang sebak di pukul gelora

rindu pada mu.

- lenggeng. October 15, 2005. 0130 am.

- picture : missing you by rosabella.deviantart.com

Kau Bagi Ku.

kau adalah teristimewa

dalam segala perkara.

dalam dunia sedar

tika mata terbuka luas

dalam dunia lena

tika mata terlelap rapat

kau yang ku mimpi.

- sa. 141005. 0240pm.

- Picture : Elven Canto by Suffering Ghost.devianart.com.

Bisik Bertanya.

terang atau gelap

hujan atau panas

aman atau taufan

dapatkah bersama selamanya?

- sa. 131005. 0859 am.

- original picture : Dark_Lovers_by_SubterfugeMalaises.deviantart.com

Will You?

the dark and hard road

lies ahead

leading to uncertainty

awaiting for me to unfold

will you walk with me?

- sa. 131005. 0842 pm.

I Am Determined

One regret,dear world,

That I am determined not to have

When I am lying on my deathbed

Is that

I did not kiss you enough.

- by Shams-ud-din Muhanmad Hafiz,(c.1320-1398)Beloved poet from Persia

Sendiri Lagi.

apabila semua orang sibuk dengan kepentingan diri sendiri
tiada salam tiada khabar pertanyaan
tiada senyuman tiada kerlingan
terus sahaja kepada keinginan hati dan nafsu mereka
aku juga memerlukan sedikit perhatian
terabai sudah akhirnya
bagai tunggul kayu
sebatang di tengah padang.

111005. 1021 am.

Angst.

there is something inside me feeling unfulfilled. sense of frustration is building up. agitation. tense. any slight disturbance will boil my feeling and anger will rupture any moments.

perfectly aware of the situation but still i can't control the feeling inside. when everythings around me seem wanna get on me, testing and poking. easily i wud loose control of myeslf.

this frustration on everything and everyone.
this agitation on things around.
this tense that choking me.

when it all will end?
how cud i kill this feeling of angry?
when cud i tame it at least before it destroy me, again?

kill. kill. kill.

Sepi Keseorangan.

indah sungguh malam ini

terlukis di dada langit

bulan berseri bersinar-sinar

bintang-bintang bersilih berkerlipan.

sapalah yang tahu

kesepian sang rembulan keseorangan

juga kesepian bintang yang terlontar jauh

hilang di telan kisah keindahan

lagenda buatan karyawan.

hanyalah pengembara

yang melihat dan mengerti

yang tersirat di sebalik

lukisan indah di dada langit.

- 051005. sa.

Strangest Thing.

i was driving the other day early in the morning. heading towards Tropicana gols and country resort. it was raining heavily. but i noticed on the other horizon, the sun ray managed to peep in between some thick clouds, there it was obvious that the horizon was a bit bright compared to the other end where it was completely dark and wet.
i was looking around for a sight of rainbow. but there was none. tho i was looking all over and thru rear mirror, both side mirror and even turning my head 360 degree. it was strange i thot since there was no rainbow but the sun and rain were in the sky.
on the return journey however, to my pleasant surprise the rainbow was up on the horizon. it was such a majestic view in addition the rainbow almost perfect in its form from one end to the other end. it was my first time to sight such an almost perfect rainbow. i slowed down my car to enable me to watch the gracious view. then i noticed the sky was a bit brighter compared to the earlier in the morning and the rain wasn't that heavy.
i wish i had my camera at that time.
perhaps life is also similar in nature. the rainbow will ultimately come by, doesn't matter how dark is the sky and how heavy is the rain. just a matter of time.

Aduhai.

duhai rembulan

mengapa berlindung di balik awan

sedang kau tahu

aku merinduimu.

duhai angin

sampaikan salamku padanya

katakan aku tetap menanti

hingga awan berarak pergi.

duhai bintang

sungguh kau beruntung

berkelipan di atas sana

senantiasa bersama si dia.

duhai malam

hanyalah satu ku pinta

janganlah kau menjemput sang pagi

selagi ia belum menampilkan diri.