Missing You.

you said i have you

but you are not here, now.

who should i kill

to take you by my side, forever.

what should i do

to live this life with you, till end.

sore feelings and bitter tastes

are all i have at this hour.

- shah alam. November 16, 2005. 1100pm.

Sleeping Beauty.

i saw her sleeping

cuddling her favourite doll

i wanted to have her so bad

i knew she wanted it too

but she slept like a baby

probably having a sweet dreams

as she smiled joyfully

slowly i sat on the nearby couch

watching her

having her

in my head.

- shah alam. November 11, 2005.

Mimpi Impian Igauan II.

alam terbentang luas
seluas mata memandang
dapatkah sayap ditebar
terbang menakluk seluruhnya.

langit biru sayup tingginya
tinggi lagi harapan di hati
dapatkah terbang bersama
bahagia selamanya.

sungguh terang sinar mentari
berkilauan di lautan yang biru
tika bulan membawa malam
hilangkah harapan di telan gelap.

- Shah Alam. November 07, 2005.

Childhood Dreams.

she asked me why am i smiling in my sleep
i told her i had a dream
a dream on a childhood time
so much happiness
nothing to worry
just having fun
running in the forest
with all sort of frens.

but i didn't tell her
it was a childhood i never have.

- Lenggeng. October 30, 2005.

Hanya Mimpi.

seakan dua dunia
terpisah terasing.

tika begitu memerlukan
teman menghangatkan tubuh
teman jiwa yang kara
kau tiada
pastinya kau juga menyumpah
pekara yang serupa.

apakah begini selamanya
bilakah kan berakhir
permainan menyiksakan ini
perlukah sehingga
salah satu jiwa
kering dan mati.

- Subang. November 03, 2005.

Night Time.

with the sunset i breath once again
wandering my way in the darkest of night
as the night becomes me
hiding my sorrows away
and to this dreams i hold dearly
so scared the dawn would blind me.

- Lenggeng. October 31, 2005.

Down.

i close my eyes
i covered my ears
i shut my heart
when everyone and everythings
all the times
seems to harm me
in one way or another
and even myself fail me.

the season of rains seems like forever
the storms keep thrashing and breaking
all the way this descending journey
of my life that going down
but all i have is myself
so i better hold on tight
to me.

- Lenggeng. October 31, 2005.

Sexposed.

the first time i lay my eyes on your naked skins
it make me a man as i turn away.

you exposed yourself
you are also exposing my true self
so i thot.

but i thot too soon
as prove by times
exposing to exposed woman in a long time
unsconcious or subconsciously
i turned myself into a wolf
an animal i am now
a man no more.

- Lenggeng. October 30, 2005.

Missing You.

dibawah tompok-tompok awan yang berarak
dalam siraman sinar mentari yang terik
pohon-pohon melentok menari ditiup angin
angin yang bertiup berpasangan dengan ombak
yang berkejaran menghempas ke daratan
dan kemudiannya berundur kembali ke laut
tanpa henti bersilih ganti
meninggalkan buih-buih di gigi pantai
yang akhirnya pecah satu demi satu
tinggallah sisa-sisa cengkerang dan karang
di dada pasiran pantai.

mentari akan tenggelam di ufuk lautan
camar akan pulang sebentar lagi
untuk terbang ke laut pada hari esok
tika mentari terbit semula
meneruskan kitaran kehidupan
satu lagi hari
tanpa mu di sisi
sunyi.

- Lenggeng. October 30, 2005.

Destination.

reaching the summit

you thot u have arrived

only to find

you are no where near

to where you're hoping for.

hope leads the way

too much hope leads to deceit.

hope that broken

either make or kill a man.

either paths are yours for taking.

- November 03, 2005.

Mimpi, Impian Dan Igauan.

berbekalkan mimpi semalam

bercekalkan harapan setinggi awan

aku anyamkan impian seindah bulan

tapi hati ini masih gusar dan berigau

akukan sendiri lagi sudahnya.

- Subang. November 03, 2005.

I wasn't Part of Your Dream.

if you are still looking for the magic

if you are still dreaming of your knight

if you are still waiting for him

if you are still refusing to awake

nothing can make you go against your wishes and will

but don't make me waiting for you.

- Lenggeng. November 01, 2005.

Injustice

you pushed me to the edge

you put the rope around my neck

you condemned me to undue death

this injustice will follow your every steps

staring you even in your sleep

slowly crawling into your heart and soul

and lifeless you will be

but it wasn't me but your own heartless

who put this curse on you.

- Lenggeng. Novermber 01, 2005.

Sendiri

akhirnya

bila petang menjelma tiba

mendapati diri sendiri lagi

di ranting pohonan yang kering

bertanyalah di dalam hati

mengapa begini?

- Lenggeng. November 01, 2005.